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Oct. 4th, 2021 03:44 pmmostly here to shore up my blogging presence because lol if twitter goes down I’m gonna be posting a LOT MORE, just spamming my stupid little thoughts onto this site because I gotta get them out of my head to function.
I guess I do have exciting news to put here, which is after almost two years, I have a job that doesn’t make me want to kill myself, lol. Well I haven’t started it yet, but it feels so much better than the two job offers I got that I turned down before, including the one that made me want to die while in the interview lol, and the one where they wanted me to be a lead teacher for 40 3-6 year olds. This one is working in a library at a suburban high school. We’ll see how it goes—I’m waiting for a background check to be done and HR paperwork to be finished and then I can actually start, so that’s all fun. I’m just hanging out here for now, doing the same thing. The school district claims to be anti-racist and they DID ask me in the interview about white supremacy, and then hired me after I gave my Big Answer about anti-Blackness, and capitalism, so we’ll see what happens once I start.
On the one hand (and frankly the biggest hand) it’s a massive relief to have theoretical employment and money coming in and not worry about having to live out of my car. And on the other hand lol the idea of staying in the twin cities long term is so hellish to me. So I will probably continue the job hunt, just being more choosy in what I apply to, instead of yknow sending in 50 applications and getting calls only about a position that is two six-hour shifts a week (which I made it to the second round of interviews for! but then got to turn down the interview itself because I got this job, and boy what a relief.)
anyway I have. Stuff I should be working on lol but I DON’T WANT TO. I slept poorly last night, but then ended up taking a nap at like 11 am until 2 pm so. I love to just continually fuck myself over on my sleep schedule, especially in the week before I have to be awake and working at 7:30 in the morning lol. I have done some stuff and I should do some more stuff—mostly I have to get my oil changed and I’d love to do it before I have to start driving to work every day. I’ve been so bad about them in the last year because I haven’t DRIVEN anywhere, but I guess time to start taking actual care of my car again. I’m just not allowed to make an appointment for Wednesday because I have THREE appointments for Wednesday—an eye appointment so I can buy new glasses (my old ones are like well over five years old, and they’ve mangled a couple times so they don’t stay on my face well, especially with masks, and since I’m going to be working 40 hours a week in person I’d like to get that fixed,) my monthly case management appointment, AND therapy. TOO MUCH STUFF. but should go do that and pretend to do. anything else.
I guess I do have exciting news to put here, which is after almost two years, I have a job that doesn’t make me want to kill myself, lol. Well I haven’t started it yet, but it feels so much better than the two job offers I got that I turned down before, including the one that made me want to die while in the interview lol, and the one where they wanted me to be a lead teacher for 40 3-6 year olds. This one is working in a library at a suburban high school. We’ll see how it goes—I’m waiting for a background check to be done and HR paperwork to be finished and then I can actually start, so that’s all fun. I’m just hanging out here for now, doing the same thing. The school district claims to be anti-racist and they DID ask me in the interview about white supremacy, and then hired me after I gave my Big Answer about anti-Blackness, and capitalism, so we’ll see what happens once I start.
On the one hand (and frankly the biggest hand) it’s a massive relief to have theoretical employment and money coming in and not worry about having to live out of my car. And on the other hand lol the idea of staying in the twin cities long term is so hellish to me. So I will probably continue the job hunt, just being more choosy in what I apply to, instead of yknow sending in 50 applications and getting calls only about a position that is two six-hour shifts a week (which I made it to the second round of interviews for! but then got to turn down the interview itself because I got this job, and boy what a relief.)
anyway I have. Stuff I should be working on lol but I DON’T WANT TO. I slept poorly last night, but then ended up taking a nap at like 11 am until 2 pm so. I love to just continually fuck myself over on my sleep schedule, especially in the week before I have to be awake and working at 7:30 in the morning lol. I have done some stuff and I should do some more stuff—mostly I have to get my oil changed and I’d love to do it before I have to start driving to work every day. I’ve been so bad about them in the last year because I haven’t DRIVEN anywhere, but I guess time to start taking actual care of my car again. I’m just not allowed to make an appointment for Wednesday because I have THREE appointments for Wednesday—an eye appointment so I can buy new glasses (my old ones are like well over five years old, and they’ve mangled a couple times so they don’t stay on my face well, especially with masks, and since I’m going to be working 40 hours a week in person I’d like to get that fixed,) my monthly case management appointment, AND therapy. TOO MUCH STUFF. but should go do that and pretend to do. anything else.